Now What?

[otherearths_outthere]

I must be letting my mothers situation be getting to me more than I thought it would. There is a reason I’m slightly removed from the situation, several actually, but she was ensconced in her assisted living apartment last Wednesday and she has been in the hospital more than she has been ‘home’

I feel for her, as do my brothers, but we are frustrated. She doesn’t want to do her exercises, she won’t use her walker and she forgets her ‘life alert’ pendant.

So my response is? I’ve spent the last week or so struggling to just get out of bed. I’m lying there in the morning for hours telling myself to get up. When I finally lurch myself out and up, I’m kicking myself for the things I’m not doing. I have health needs of my own that are not being met. I really don’t want to end up like her and many other elders. I feel I have the tools available to me. Yet I’m not using them. Auggggghhhhh.

Comments

[goddess47]

There's no magic answer. Just know we're here to listen...

::FIERCE HUGS::

[otherearths_outthere]

Thank you so much.
::HUGS BACK::
I think it helps to post the frustration. It’s just so odd, that even before mom got so old and broken down, I worked hard to keep myself healthy and fit, and now I’m just a slug.

[wpadmirer]

It's hard to be motivated when you've got concerns about your mother's refusal to participate in her care.

Give yourself a break, but maybe use some of the things you think you should be doing to release some of your concern. To relieve stress.

[otherearths_outthere]

The fact that I’m not taking care of myself any better than she is right now, is bitter irony. My goal has always been to age with strength. My back, legs and the bottom of my feet are all rebellious to this plan.

[wpadmirer]

I send you much sympathy and love!